valogram from dean z's blog & going to the movies alone

This is the acappella group singing "my life would suck without you" for our admissions dean. This is the song Stephanie and Sally sent me.

I went to see a movie alone for the first time in my life. It was "A Single Man" with Colin Firth. I never saw him acting as a gay man. Tom Ford directed it. It had really good ratings so I had great expectations. As always, Colin Firth delivers. He is a phenomenal actor. I had planned to catch a show last night but couldn't make it because my mom called. I didn't want to tell her I was going to go see a movie on my own. But I also didn't want to lie.

Today, I almost missed it again because she called right as I was leaving. This time I was truthful and told her I was going to the movies on my own. At first she seemed surprised but later was extremely supportive. A friend asked what was the difference between seeing a movie alone at home and at the theater. I don't have a clever answer for that but I think it's sort of like the difference between renting an apartment alone as a single girl and buying (and living in) a house alone as a single girl. Not sure if that made sense.

There was a line that resonated with how I was feeling. The present is a drag. Colin Firth counters to that statement...what makes you think the future won't be a drag. I don't know. But I cling to the hope of a better day.