february goals

big goal: go to the gym....err (I have to be conservative here) 7 times in Feb! (maybe this was way too conservative...)

medium goal: donate blood. I'm not good at being active in life but I'm darn good at keeping appointments. I made an appointment to donate blood next Monday! This is part of my bigger goal of 2010 of becoming a more active and involved human being.

small goal: keep nails polished. I let them become disgusting...letting them fade (or more accurately...chip off)naturally. It looks hideous so I must practice the art of maintaining my nails nice and polished! Must be less laze, one nail at a time!


great thing about being single: I never go over minutes in my phone plan. I have unlimited texts...but no one texts me (except for the transactional-- (1) what time? (2) when? (3) where? (4) ok).

sad thing about being single: the only person who calls me for idle-chat is my mom. Even my mom doesn't call me that often anymore. Every other phone-call (unless a friend is having problems or I'm having problems) is transactional in nature lasting less than 60 seconds. A sample of my recent phone-calls (when I say recent...I mean...past month) were related to Haiti-relief efforts from automated machines, customer service, and food-delivery people informing me that they were at the door with my food.

on a lighter note...

likes

green tea; peace tea at espresso royale; san pellegrino sparking orange soda; barley tea; bose head-phones; tax refunds; prof. avi-yonah's twenty minute lectures; professor logue; middle-aged korean moms; jason's outlines; self-service machines at the post office; duck (meat); shopping online; fish; g-chat; zagat; rides to school; birthday messages; random texts; driving while singing along to arashi music in broken japanese; friends who fix your computer; cupcake-station dates.

dislikes

tinted glasses; acne; driving in the snow; shopping at malls; eating the same food 3 times in a row; expired eggs; using treadmills; people who can't do their jobs; people who aren't smiling when they're doing their jobs; disposable wooden chopsticks; moving animals; people who are bad at facebook; parallel parking; voice-mails; slow computers; hearts of stone.


random thought: the moment you consciously decide to stop wishing someone happy birthday is the moment you decide to make that person irrelevant in your life.

great thing about being single: independence. all my decisions are made by a central authority...me. I can unilaterally make major and minor decisions for myself...selfishly.

sad thing about being single: I may have become too independent and stubborn that singleness will be a perpetual cycle that won't break because I'll be a terrible significant other to someone. I may have a deep rooted habit of doing things only for myself and for my sake. I've never had to work out my life around someone else. So in sum, I'm going to be a bad participant in a relationship. Also, every decision I make...I make alone without anyone's feedback so if it backfires...it's all my fault!

jehovah's witnesses came by my house today

I've learned from an early age that those friendly people who randomly ring your bell with wide smiles are Jehovah's witnesses...what we call "sa-ee-bi" (in Korean). People believing the wrong faith or believing the right faith in the wrong way? I guess in English, cults? I don't know if it's legitimate to call Jehovah's witnesses as cult members nowadays. I don't know where they stand these days in the politically correct world.

They rang my bell because we were Korean. The white male was accompanied by a small Korean boy. The white male asked me if I could read Korean in Korean (his Korean was superb) as he handed me a magazine that asked "Are you working too hard?" The magazine's title was "Wake up!" As soon as he handed me the magazine, I knew what was up. The spelling of God in the magazine was off for one. There is a way Christians spell it and how others spell it. It was spelled the latter way. Second, they were very well dressed and looked too gentle and nice to start selling me material goods. The little Korean boy looked nervous as I stared at him. The two wanted to share something greater!

I don't encourage cults to go around sharing their message but I'm sure at some point, someone thought I was part of a cult when I went around ev-ing. Those Chinese students in China, those people on the streets...during KCCC training...at least some of them must have thought I was nuts! So, I expected more as a fellow cold-faith-sharer. I wanted them to at least try to convince me. My complaint is...they were too nice to me and didn't give me their message. They just handed me a magazine where I had to figure it out for myself what their message was.

I was quickly able to see that either 1) they're just gentle people; or 2) it's their first time and they're shy! I always complained about the old Korean ladies in Flushing, NY who would without saying much hand you a pamphlet about Jesus. Lame!

You can't hand papers and expect people to listen to your message-- whether it is the truth or not. But I know how hard it is to go against the world...having people believe you're part of some sick cult. That's why I sympathized with them. Though I'm sure...to an extent, they think I'm part of a cult and they're part of the Truth. This encounter reminded me of when I was bold...and put my present self into shame. I have become lame!

Anyway, my heart of stone may be thawing a little. Praise God. It's nice to see your heart move a little...break a little for things that break God's heart.

nick is my IT-guy

Nick has my laptop. He is changing the hard-drive of my computer because my computer has been uber-slow. It makes clicking sounds. Hopefully the switch will make my laptop function normally again. If not, I will have to purchase a new laptop. I'm still one of those people scared of switching over to Mac. I'm most afraid that my extensive downloading tv-shows-activity will experience setbacks if I make the switchover. Oh the agony.

Side note: I really appreciate a tv show with good-writing + good-acting + good-directing. It pleases me so much! I want to clap. "Bloody Monday" Season II(TBS).

Also, I guess I can now have a theme in this blog of accounting for what's great about being single and what's sad about being single to amuse my huge readership.

great thing about being single: I don't have to eat out so much so I don't gain that weight that girls complain about when they're in relationships!

sad thing about being single: I have no one to go to restaurants with and due to having to eat leftovers of food I make (that I have no one to share with), I still gain that weight.

friday night for a lazy single girl

great thing about being single: I can go to bed at 9:42 pm on a Friday night.

sad thing about being single: no one cares if I go to bed at 9:42 pm on a Friday night.

are you on someone's bridesmaid track?

It seems like all girls do when they meet up nowadays is talk about weddings. People are getting married right and left. Especially Christian girls. The panic sets in! Someone told me my eggs are rotting! :( A medically irresponsible statement made by a med student. Ok...perspective! I'm still 24. I'll worry about them eggs when I hit 32.

By the time a girl is in her second year of grad-school, she has an idea of who will definitely be her bridesmaid. There might be one or two empty slots but a good number of them have been filled. And then, you meet new people...and they might get on your bridesmaid track (as Tina calls it). They might expand your bridesmaid-crew or kick someone else off! (This also depends on how many friends your future husband has. If he has a lot of friends, you don't have to kick people off your bridesmaid track...you might have to recruit less-than-bridesmaid-worthy friends to fill the hole. If he has no friends...you might want to lend him your guy friends or kick one of your girls off.)

For someone who has a sister, it's easy. Sally will probably be my bridesmaid. But!!! I have a standard that I might have to revise. I told Suah when she was getting married that there was no way she could be my bridesmaid because she was married. She said she would produce a flower boy/girl for me. That has been my standard -- no married girl will become my bridesmaid.

But!!! What if I get married when my younger sister and all my close girlfriends are already married? It seems like a likely scenario. Should I revise my bridesmaid track qualifications by lowering(?) my standards? Married women allowed? But definitely not pregnant ladies. Sorry...I can't lower them any further.

Eh, I should probably Las Vegas-it when it comes down to me getting married when everyone else has been hitched. Woes.

Are you on someone's bridesmaid track? Are you on mine? Remember...you could possibly get disqualified. But I should chew on it for a little longer. Or...probably when the situation happens!

forgot to blog, forgot to blog!

ugh, i totes forgot!